T S U B I B O

Let me start my blog post by saying HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!! I was really about to write a blog for your birthday last Friday but you texted me so my attention diverted to you. Actually same lang naman. hahaha! So this post will be about your birthday, as much as possible I will try to avoid to have drama kahit alam kong hindi ko kaya :) I also wanted to be the first one to great you, kaso mukhang hindi naman yun mangyayari, so dito ko nalang idadaan, plus ayoko ng mahabang text kasi baka hindi mo pansinin. So I guess, this will be better.

Happy 19th birthday, as people always say, 19 kana, nineteendihan mo na din ang mga bagay bagay. Last year on being a teen, sweetheart. you better make the most out of it though di kapa talaga nadedebut. Ang bilis ng panahon no.. parang kelan lang, you're just a boy I used to pass by the corridors of UPIS. Malay ko ba kung sino ka, little did I know na magiging malaking parte ka pala sa buhay ko, and that's cool. Alam ko na nun yung birthdate mo kaso i didn't had the chance to greet you kasi hindi pa tayo nun masyadong magkakilala at close.

Your birthday on 2010, I can't remember anything about that, all I know is we were so happy back then celebrating our birthdays together as well as Christmas and New Year and all other occasions, TOGETHER. During your birthday on 2011, we had a fight. hahaha. Ewan ko ba, baliw kasi ako nun eh, mahilig akong mangaway (kahit ngayon naman). Yun yung may training ka sa Meralco tapos kumain kayo nila Tita sa Metrowalk. Di kita tinext nun kasi magkaaway tayo. And regret that, a lot.. Kung alam ko lang na yun na pala yung last birthday mo na magkasama tayo, I should have treated you better, I should have surprised you or did something that could make you happy.. baka sakaling nasalba ko pa nun yung relationship natin (I always blame myself for our break up). Pero hindi naman na natin mababalik yung panahon, natapos na yun, hindi na ako makakabawi pa.. And then 2012, of course hindi kita binati. HAHAHA. I know you understand. 2013, I greeted you with "happy birday kahit wala kang bird", I thought it would be funny kaso binara mo lang ako, so naisip kong pinagbawalan ka nyang kausapin ako, kaso hindi na pala sya.... iba na pala. So anyway, 2014 na, it's a "new year" and some things must be left behind. Here I am greeting you a happiest birthday :)

And this, is a much better photo of us together during my 21st. :) why do we look so good together? Nah. In my dreams. But I just want you to see how we became more matured. Not just physically but emotionally and mentally. Diba? mas matured kana nga sakin ngayon, I'm so left behind.

So here's a thing, I actually MADE something for you... Bibigay ko sana dun sa day na niyaya kitang magkita tayo, kaso may iba ka palang lakad so hindi ako nagkarun ng chance para ibigay sayo yun... And then I gave up on you, I didn't text you.... Tapos tinapon ko...... HUHUHUHUHU. Akala ko kasi di kana din naman magttext, so instead of keeping it which will always remind me of you, tinapon ko nalang. Sayang pera, pero okay lang, parang pagmamahal ko lang yun sayo na tinapon mo lang, so sanay naman na ako hahaha jk.

But seriously, I wanted to surprise you. Balloons, birthday cards, birthday gifts, foods, friends, aka surprise party. Pero hindi ko yun magagawa (always may pero), wala naman akong karapatan at walang chance. Besides I won't see you anytine soon diba. Plus I don't wanna spoil you bc you're not mine, syempre mas gugustuhin natin gawin yun sa taong special, I mean, you're still special but you know what I mean. So in the NEAR future (please lang Lord), I would definitely do it for my guy. hart hart.

I wish you all the best in life. Magandang career, studies, healthy and happy family. I know naman na how happy you are na with your love life so I don't have to wish you for that na. Basta always pray for His guidance. Magchurch ka every Sunday. Gusto rin ulit kita makasamang magchurch, pero.. HAHAHA, that's far from reality. Alam kong ilang years from now magkakaroon kana ng sarili mong restaurant, I'm really looking forward to that and I'm so excited for you.

I miss you. I miss you so much. Thank you for everything, thank you bc you MADE me feel special, secured and loved. Masaya ako dahil nakilala kita. I don't regret na minahal kita ng sobra sobra, kahit na nasaktan din ako ng sobra sobra. Kung bibigyan ako ng chance para mamili kung sinong mamahalin ko, I would always choose you. And papapiliin ako ng taon kung kailan ako ipapanganak, iwiwish ko na sana parehas nalang tayo ng taon, baka sakaling magiba yung tadhana sa atin. Pero diba nga, hindi na natin mababalik ang nakaraan at mababago ang tadhana. Namiss ko yung pamilya mo. Gusto kong sabihin sayo na sobrang naging masaya ako nung nakasama ko sila nung nasa hospital tayo, parang hindi nila pinaramdam sakin na hindi na ako yung girlfriend mo, rather they made me feel a part of the family. Thank you so much. nakakaiyak hahaha!

If ever naman na kailangan mo ng friend, nandito lang ako para sayo palagi, alam mo naman na yun. Kahit alam kong ako yung least person na lalapitan mo kapag kailangan mo ng tulong, I would always be willing to help u and your family. Superwoman kaya ako. Nandito pa din ako sa 20th, 21st 22nd 23rd 24th and so on birthdays mo. Hindi ako mawawala, ako ang masamang panaginip mo. hahaha jk. :)