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Late Night Realizations
Late night realizations.. This are realizations rather than over thinking.. I really don't know why I have these realizations at this time pero these things hunt my mind... Issues with other people. From my past and even the present. Love and friends. Why do you keep on haunting my mind... Gusto ko na maging masaya. Masaya in a way na wala na akong nararamdamang pain from the past... :")
I have this person as my FUBU, okay, don't judge me. It's not what u think... Yes, I do like him, pero may girlfriend sya... Pero happy naman kami kapag we're together.. Alam ko at some point, may natatapakan akong tao.. Pero alam ko naman yung limits ko eh.. Di pa kami nakakarating dun... As for now, all I know, kapag magkasama kami, happy ako. Hindi ko nararamdaman yung pain from my past... He once said "i love you" alam kong di naman yun galing sa puso nya, pero may sparks talaga kapag magkasama kami. This is just a one sided love but I really don't care at all, as long as nagiging happy naman ako db, who cares..
I also have another buddy, pero friends lang tlga kami. Friends since grade10. May girlfriend din sya. Nagkakabiruan kami dati na kapag nagbreak sila ng girl nya, kami nalang. Pero alam ko namang joke lang yun and he loves his girlfriend more than anything in this world. Nung nagbreak nga sila, super usap kami kasi kelangan nya ng magcocomfort tapos painom din sya ng painom. Pero nung nagkabalikan sila.. Wala na.. His girlfriend naman e nagseselos daw saken. Super pointless because her boy knows naman who I like, basta he knows everything naman, so bakit kelangan umabot sa point na ganito. Point where he almost gave up our friendship...
And there's this guy whom I really admire the most. We haven't met each other personally pero nagkakatext kami and skype before. ngayon, bihirang bihira na. He's too high, ang talino kasi. Pero that's what I like naman eh. A guy who's smarter than me. Yung may pangarap sa buhay. May daang tinatahak. Not just anybody lang na masabi lang na may course. Di naman ako nagmamataas, pero kasi, ang taas ng pangarap ko, ang unfair naman kung yung partner ko eh so-so lang.. But as i said, we haven't met personally, i'm hoping, ngayong this coming sem sana since maluwag sched ko...
And my bestfriend. My HS bestfriend. One of the strongest women I personally know. Parang di sya nakakaramdam ng pain, parang di sya umiiyak. Ang NR nga nya sa lahat ng bagay eh. My bestfriend and I are super duper opposite persons. I'm emotionally weak while she's strong, when I say strong, emotionally strong. Because I'm physically stronger than her. Hahaha! I'm a very happy, gay and jolly person, while she is... Hmm, she's happy. Haha! Basta, we're two different persons talaga. I have no idea how we became bestfriends nga eh.. So anyway, there, sobrang takot lang talaga ako sakanya mag open up, even if she's my bestfriend. Kasi parati nya lang akong pinapagalitan... Pero I know naman that she cares... Pero takot pa din ako... But i love love love her, sobra!!!
sabi nila isang sign daw na nagmamature kana kapag di mo na pinapaalam sa iba yung problema mo. Pero my friends know na hindi ako ganung klase ng tao. Mas gusto ko yung meron akong pinaglalabasan ng sama ng loob because it can help lessen the pain plus I can get advices from them.. Pero i'm really trying to keep all my problems to myself nalang kasi, it's my problem naman, not there's so what's the point, baka makadagdag lang ako sa iniisip nila.. I'm just hoping and wishing at this point of my life that everything i've been through would make me a stronger and wiser person..
