The question i've always wanted to ask you even if I know the answer.. Happy, contented, in love.. Can I blame him for being happy, but can he blame me too for being concern, still? Hmm. It has been 5 months since the last time I saw you. And you look fine. Though you gain some weight (mom noticed it) hehe. Yet, you still look good, for me.. I'm not updated with your activities anymore. Ate's not texting me anymore though I greeted her on her birthday. But I chose not to reply anymore. Hmm, how are you. I wanna know the answer from you.. 2 months to go then, tenen! It has been a year since we drifted apart. Ohh, how time flies so fast.. I can't even count the times I cried myself to sleep. Times when I cant concentrat in my academics thinking about you. Thinking about us, what it used to be. Thinking about, what ifs. So many things running in my mind.. You're still the biggest part of it.. I can't believe it, it was just like last year when you knelt down and asked for another chance.. But now, I can imagine how happy you are with her.

i've been dreaming about you, only you for the past months but it has been a while since I last dreamt about you. But last night, i dreamt about you and her. Actually it was only her, but I still saw you there. Sitting quietly behind her while me, I'm trying to be strong while looking at you with her. In my dream, I was still fighting for you. Same things i did last year. Fighting for you, ONLINE. I know how pathetic am I last year, then suddenly you left without any warnings..

I fought for you. I fought for us. I fought for our love. What was wrong is that, I was the only one fighting in that battle field. I was the only one fighting for the perfect love story we once had. I still can't believe that the LOVE we once had was thrown away, easily.. It was like we were just singing Forevermore when all of a sudden, you were not mine anymore. Hehe. I think that's just life. Like a roller coaster. Has ups and downs. Has many twists. But i know that after this ride, I will be happy, and learned a lot of lessons.

here I go again, blogging about my dramas in life. To think that the man I'm talking in here will not be able to read this, he doesn't even know this. Or if he does, he will not bother to read this. Why should he? He's now happy. I just want to release the pain and stress I'm feeling right now. I'm not asking naman for him to come back eh. Hehe.

every time I blog about you I can't help but shed a tear. Remembering the fairytale I once had which can't be back any more..